Welcome to the shittiest club on the planet. Our hearts are broken for you. We are with you in every sob, every sleepless night, every longing moment.
You are so strong. You’re stronger than you know and your strength will appear in ways you never imagined.
I am so so so sorry. That pain you are feeling is so deep and real. You probably never imagined surviving this and here you are. Surviving. And that’s all you’re going to do for a while and that is more than ok. You can take this a day at a time, minute at a time – go down to milliseconds if you need to. Just hold on to John and hold on to each breath.
Jack is so special. He always will be. He sees you and loves you and knows you did everything you could to keep him safe. You are a good mom.
Our children never leave us. We parent them in every memory and in every imagined moment. We may never hear their voices or know the color of their eyes. We may never see them graduate, get married or even skin a knee, but we parent them still.
Jack will always have a place in your heart and in your home. He is your beautiful son. He loves you so much.
The community of loss moms thank you. You have no idea how much your openness gives us a space to grieve. You have no idea how seen we feel in your photos. You showed us to the world. You connected us and sent us love as hearts broke globally. We appreciate your voice as so many of ours have been silent.
In love and tears,
Allie